Александр Сергеевич Пушкин

One of my favorite poets wrote these words long ago. Well, he wrote them in Russian. This is the translation.

I loved you; even now I may confess,
Some embers of my love their fire retain;
But do not let it cause you more distress,
I do not want to sadden you again.

Hopeless and tongue-tied, yet I loved you dearly
With pangs the jealous and the timid know;
So tenderly I loved you, so sincerely,
I pray God grant another love you so.


Ran across this poem again this week, stuck in my poetry journal. Amazing how words can bring up the past so quickly.

Makes me want to monitor my words and say things that will only bring back joy, and never pain. I also want to know.. does love ever really die? Or will there always be embers?

This much I do not know.

My new hobby

Yep. I have a new hobby.

Let me explain. I love to have things to do. I like to be busy. But I need something FUN to do in the midst of school and work. I have never been really crafty, nor creative in the artsy sense of the word, so when new adventures in experimenting present themselves, I am generally game.

So... my friend has a horse. Aramus is white and lovely. He is like a blank canvas. He was a prime target for some sort of mischief.

So I painted it. See?



I think next time there shall be more color used so all of him is colored:)

The leaves are gently falling

Fall is here. Crisy winds, falling leaves, pumpkin donuts:)

See my roommate? Ain't she cute?

I have made wonderful friends here, who allow me to be joyful in the moment, live like a curious poking child and when I am not in my normal frame of mind, drag me into happiness when I don't feel it.

This time of year, with the colors and massive piles of leaves is really a novelty for me. We don't get this much color back in Texas, except for at UT football games.

Which reminds me. The games are on!

Global warming, my toe!

I am a bit wary of this white falling stuff whirling past the windows as I type this. Though it has a sort of wild beauty to it, the idea of doomed ice balls hurling themselves at me when I leave these safe confines is frightening.

What an amazing world we live in. The cold also makes me think. Is there really such a thing as global warming? If so, why has it not hit Michigan yet?

I am also begging that a comparable school be opened in the Bahamas. Tomorrow. Please!

I am also reminded how fortunate (read that blessed!) I am to have warm clothes and a house that has fireplaces and we have heat at work. How great it is to be able to race around outside in the madness and have a refuge to hide in.

Jesus Loves Me (this i know)

I have been having a rough couple of weeks. My mind has been very scattered. I haven't been able to focus. This is a bad thing in graduate school! I was stuck in my own head with confusion swimming around like a mad shark.

So I have been praying like mad. And God has been answering me so wonderfully.

I ride my bike to class (most days) and this morning riding over the wet pavement I could hear my tires making soft swooshing sounds. The brilliant autumn leaves are falling here and have made wonderful patchwork quilt on the road. And my tires were making wonderful soft sounds while racing over them.

The beauty of the ride reminded me of a favorite text. "When I said, my foot slips, Your Mercy, O Lord, holds me up." I can have a bad day, a low couple of weeks but when I call out to God, He answers me and better yet, He holds me up. He loves me and shows me in the tiny ways that I can understand.

Jesus Loves Me This I Know!

Talk to me

Found out today that the people we think we know and love are at times an enigma.

Why is it that when a person is hurt or sad or confused that they would choose not to speak to the people who are 'harming' them and would rather post it on the net?

Seems passive aggresive to me. And yet, we love them anyhow. We love not because they hurt us. We love because they hurt. Period. We love because the world needs love to heal. We love because, ultimately, love is what makes our days bright and our lips smile.

So talk to me. Talk to me of love and of beauty. Talk to me of pain and sorrow. And I will respond with love (or a good whack in the head, dependant on the situation)

Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves.
-Romans 12:10

Happiness - Day 6

This is tha last day of my official happiness journal, though I have really enjoyed keeping track of what I love in life! It is a great reminder of what a wonderful life I have been given!

1) It's Sabbath!
2) Talking with Ted and Judy
3) Lunch at Seth and Angela's
4) SUGAR! She had a birthday! Cranium is so much fun! Girls won!
5) Chai Tea and blown glass chandeliers

Day Five of Happiness

Happiness abounds in life!

1) Being busy at work
2) Baking ( I love to bake!)
3) The end of the week is here!
4) Driving in my car. Did I mention I love my car?
5) Granola Breath - he makes me laugh!